In the Flow with Healing Waters
Give yourself a gift
After I woke up at 3:30 this morning, I tried to fall back asleep and couldn’t. I decided to utilize my morning and get up. I ended up at my comfy chair in the living room all bundled up.
As I sat, I had lots of fleeting thoughts. Things to do….to plan…. to process. I noticed there were many distractions coming up in my mind. As I continued to sit, there seemed to be a war inside my body. My head was trying to figure out stuff, but my heart was trying to tone things down.
My heart was saying…..notice the thoughts, notice the distractions, notice the noise, just notice. You don’t have to DO anything.
So often in life, it seems as if we have to do things to be productive, to do things to relax, to do things to live life. I often feel worked up when people around me are always asking me what I am going to do today, tomorrow, or next weekend. Maybe I am just not a great planner, but I believe I try to live in the now.
I realized something about myself around 5 years ago. If I were going on vacation, I would get really excited several weeks prior to the vacation. I was really happy during the first half of the trip. Once that midpoint showed its ugly head, it would decline and I would be trying to slow the vacation down (how does one even do that???) Then once the trip was done, I would be sad because it was over. Summer used to do the same thing. Once that July 4th date would come, I would start to feel the decline. Maybe you can relate?
What I figured out was that I wasn’t living in the NOW. I was living in the future (excited for vacation and summer) and the past (sad that both were ending).
Don’t get me wrong, this will still happen especially when the school stuff shows up at Target and my heart gets a little thump…but now I use that thump to remind me to stay present.
That is what my heart is always telling me. Live here and now. Not for tomorrow, not for next week, not for next year. It is also not about yesterday, last week, month, or year. It is right here – right now.
Our hearts are always speaking, but oftentimes we are so busy DOING, that we don’t hear or listen.
I invite you to sit and just listen, whether that be to the birds outside, to the creaks of your house, or to the things that your heart wants you to hear. Listen and notice.
Being present is a great gift for yourself.
In the now of the flow,